I know this is going to sound crazy but I am more and more
and more in love with my kids and husband every day. When we lost the baby my world pretty much
crumbled around me and because of the love and support that my husband has
showed me I am so in love with him and our marriage is stronger than it has
ever been. I have so much more
confidence in my parenting ability, and know now more than ever that I am doing
the best job that I can with them. They
are my life and getting to be a stay at home mom and spend my days with them is
better than any job and any amount of money that someone could give me. I look
at them and I just want to make every dream come true, I want to give them the
best upbringing that I can give them, I never ever want them to ever wonder if
I love them because I show them affection every day multiple times a day. I seriously every chance I get hold them as
tight as I can and play as much as I can and am just loving them with every
being in my heart, soul and body will allow me.
It’s amazing to me
how something can change your life in just one moment and then change your
world for ever.
If you keep up with me on facebook then you know that poor
little Cheyanne has a double ear infection so she is pretty miserable but is
not on antibiotics and will start feeling better soon but for now is a little
on the fussy side, Izabella has one of the nastiest diaper rashes that I have
ever seen and it’s all due to teething. Cheyanne is super close to crawling she
is up on her hands and knees rocking all she needs to do is figure out how to maneuver
and she will be off and crawling. Izabella
is babbling nonstop, I think Cheyanne is going to crawl first but Izabella is
def going to talk first and to me I think it’s awesome. Hannah-Joy is finally
starting to talk more and praise the lord because with limited communications
between us it was getting more and more difficult. She is so loveable and truly
a the JOY of our lives and it just blooming into this amazing little girl who
is going to set the world on fire with her personality and looks.
As I said Brian and I are doing amazing now only in our
marriage but also in our everyday lives.
Brian is excelling in his job and making more and more great decision to
secure our future. I have been back on my meds for the last week and a half and
boy what a difference it has made, I am finally starting to feel like myself
again and together we have some decision to make regarding our future but for
now we are leaving it up to God and taking it one step at a time.
Well I should get going, hope you all have a great weekend
and making all your hopes and dreams come trule!!!!!!
